When I came to Christ and started to learn and gain understanding, wisdom and discernment, I received many rude awakenings.

I was so full of the desire to do whatever it took to be closer to the Lord. I would pray and say, “have Your way, Lord.” What I didn’t know was, I was giving God permission to break me. I was giving God authority to put me through things that I really didn’t know, understand or ever even thought about. You see, in order for God to have His way in me, I had to be broken (of self) and experienced (in His truth, His ways). Because our brokenness and experience is what He uses.

God allows us to endure certain things so that we can grow, be strengthened, to be broken of our (selfishness) flesh so that we may be used by God for His glory. When you ask God to use you, when you ask Him to draw nearer to us, we must be mindful of what that could look like, it’s not always the same. And it’s not always out of joy and convenience that we draw near to Him and are used by Him. Sometimes it’s out of total disparity we draw near. Sometimes it’s in absolutely pain when He uses us. Don’t be discouraged by this, just fall into the arms of the Lord. It’s all for the glory of the Lord. Nothing is wasted.

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:18, 28-30‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Also read:

Romans 8:18-30

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Zephaniah 3:17

Isaiah 43:1-7

We have to remember, the things that we are facing today is the very thing that will carry us to the next level, the next breakthrough, the next assignment. This is training by trial. As painful as it maybe, know that this isn’t the end. God is not mad at you, He has not forgotten you, He hasn’t turned a blind eye to your suffering.

Don’t let this trail turn you, let it strengthen you. Ask Him what He wants you to learn in this hour. He has never left just because it seems as if He’s silent. We must put what we’ve learned in past seasons of trial into practice. God loves you! He’s right there. Lift your head beloved ❤️

“For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.’”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭41:13‬

Updated: Jul 13

Trust me, I get it. You’re tired, feeling warn out, drained, you can’t take another thing. It seems like you can’t crawl from under the weight of it all. So many things fighting you from all directions. You just want to scream!

You pray and pray, nothing. It’s like God is on vacation. He’s not moving, or at least it feels like that. You get so overwhelmed with everything that’s going on, you have so much to do, you don’t even know where to start. So you don’t. You just don’t do anything. Everything going on around you, things that didn’t seem like such a big deal before are now all in your face and you can escape.

You try to do the right thing and read your Bible, listen to worship music, watch videos of encouraging words being given, you pray, you ask others for prayer. You are doing everything you know how to do as a faithful believer. But you’re still stuck in this assault on your life. You cry, you weep, you try and try, but nothing is changing. You wonder what the point is.

That liar of an enemy has asked to sift you like wheat. He is trying everything in his limited access to you, to get you to quit. He’s waiting and plotting your downfall. DO NOT GIVE UP! DO NOT GIVE IN! God has not left you! And He never will! You are being prepared for GREATER. God uses everything, every tear. Whatever is next requires what seems like more than you have left. Take a second, look and see what God brought you through, what He’s done for you, your family, your loved ones, etc. The grace He’s given you so that has carried you to where you are now. You can do this, with His help. You are a walking testimony, never forget that. One day, you will testify to the greatness of our heavenly Father’s love for you in this season to help someone else. Don’t forget all of the other seasons He’s carried you through. I speak prophetically over you: your breakthrough is coming. Your prayers have not fallen on deaf ears. You will come out of this fire smelling like grace and not smoke.

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.””

‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1:9‬ ‭

“Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?””

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭13:5-6‬