Will you give this up for Me?
When God asked me that question it absolutely broken my heart, but I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew He would be there for me, heal me, restore me and use the situation for His glory.
You see, I became like the woman in the Bible who pushed through a crowd of people to touch the hem of Jesus’ garment. For 12 years she did all she could do to stop her issue. She saw doctor after doctor to no avail.
I dealt with it for awhile. But it got so bad that I had to call for help while I was out alone. “Please, can you bring me a change of cloths?” It was embarrassing and no matter how well prepared I was, it didn’t matter.
The doctors performed 4 surgeries in a 2 year span trying to “fix” this issue. Nothing worked. The fibroids grew back in the matter of weeks. I was weak (anemic), in constant pain and emotional done.
Then, God asked me that question, “Will you give this up for Me?” I knew what He meant. I cried so bitterly in my soul. I/we desired more children, but after a number of miscarriages and the fibroids, it just wasn’t in God’s plan for us.
“Yes, Lord. I will do anything for You.” I answered as my heart broke all the more. But then came the peace. A peace that I can’t even explain. A peace like I’ve never experienced before.
So, I had the surgery. I gave up my hearts desire, my hopes to give my husband a little girl, my desire to go through all the ups and downs of pregnancy, changing diapers, all of babies firsts. I let it all go because I knew and I know, whatever God has for me is going to be greater.
Sometimes we give up those things that our hearts desire for the will of God. He is not slack in caring for us, restoring us and doing His will in our lives, if we let Him. Abraham was going to kill His son, Issac, because God asked Him to. Abraham had such faith and trusted God so much, he believes if he killed his son, that God would raise him from the dead. Let us walk, live and believe God in faith.
God uses everything. Be encouraged and be blessed.