Will you give this up for Me?

When God asked me that question it absolutely broken my heart, but I knew it was the right thing to do. I knew He would be there for me, heal me, restore me and use the situation for His glory.

You see, I became like the woman in the Bible who pushed through a crowd of people to touch the hem of Jesus’ garment. For 12 years she did all she could do to stop her issue. She saw doctor after doctor to no avail.

I dealt with it for awhile. But it got so bad that I had to call for help while I was out alone. “Please, can you bring me a change of cloths?” It was embarrassing and no matter how well prepared I was, it didn’t matter.

The doctors performed 4 surgeries in a 2 year span trying to “fix” this issue. Nothing worked. The fibroids grew back in the matter of weeks. I was weak (anemic), in constant pain and emotional done.

Then, God asked me that question, “Will you give this up for Me?” I knew what He meant. I cried so bitterly in my soul. I/we desired more children, but after a number of miscarriages and the fibroids, it just wasn’t in God’s plan for us.

“Yes, Lord. I will do anything for You.” I answered as my heart broke all the more. But then came the peace. A peace that I can’t even explain. A peace like I’ve never experienced before.

So, I had the surgery. I gave up my hearts desire, my hopes to give my husband a little girl, my desire to go through all the ups and downs of pregnancy, changing diapers, all of babies firsts. I let it all go because I knew and I know, whatever God has for me is going to be greater.

Sometimes we give up those things that our hearts desire for the will of God. He is not slack in caring for us, restoring us and doing His will in our lives, if we let Him. Abraham was going to kill His son, Issac, because God asked Him to. Abraham had such faith and trusted God so much, he believes if he killed his son, that God would raise him from the dead. Let us walk, live and believe God in faith.

God uses everything. Be encouraged and be blessed.

IHow does that old saying go, “God gives the toughest battles to His strongest warriors.” Sometimes I think God thinks I’m a lot strong than I think I am, Lol.

But in those battles is where what we have learned from God’s word, we put into action. We hide His word in our hearts and walk them out in those times. In those battles is where we see the fruit! The good word say, by their fruit you will know them.

If you are frequently faced with trials and situations, it’s not a punishment, it’s training to prepare you for the blessings that are about to happen. Blessings don’t always mean money. Blessings can include wisdom, healing, freedom, connections, provision, support and most importantly, a deeper relationship with our God, our Abba.

When the storms come, don’t cast down your soul, instead, look up to where your help comes from. This is a hard one sometimes, but count it all joy! Instead of looking at the situation and the negatives. Look forward for the blessings. See where God spared you and protected you. We don’t always understand why certain things are allowed to happen to us, but you better believe that there is a purpose for your pain.

Each day we, as believers, we try to live out the will of God according to our purpose, according to His commands, precepts and laws. Although we are not bound by the law because of grace. The law and commands guide our lives on the hidden path, the narrow path, the path that is hard to find, the paths of righteousness.

As we move further along the narrow path, the Lord reveals Himself to us, if we are looking. He reveals the truth and those lies we’ve believed our whole life (we aren’t capable, we aren’t qualified, we aren’t smart enough, we are unworthy, we are too fat, we aren’t pretty, we are too tall, etc.) start to fall away. The closer we get to Him, the more we are filled with His truth and the natural sinful nature starts to loses its grip. We will never be perfect on this side of glory, but we can move forward in our purpose as we are led by the Holy Spirit.

We each have a race to run. But the thing is, we are not racing against one another, we are racing against ourselves. Running to be the best me/you we can be. We are all unique, being equipped to do the work God set before the foundations of the earth. There’s no room or time for competition or worldly lusts. We have been given a set amount of time to accomplish our purpose. Let’s not waste time trying to live someone else life. You are important. Your role is important.

It may sound funny, but I always say, I put on my horse blinders and stay in my lane. Any time I’ve ever tried to look over or concern myself with what’s going on in someone else’s lane, I miss a turn in mine. As the body of Christ, we all have a part to live. Let us do our best, with the gifts and roles He has given that we all may be complete lacking no good thing!

“Now you are the body of Christ, and members individually.”

‭‭I Corinthians‬ ‭12:27‬ ‭

“And He Himself gave some to be apostles, some prophets, some evangelists, and some pastors and teachers, for the equipping of the saints for the work of ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ, till we all come to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a perfect man, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ; that we should no longer be children, tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness of deceitful plotting, but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head—Christ— from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭4:11-16‬