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~Without brokenness, how would we know what it is to be made whole?

~Without being dirty (from sin), how would we know what it is to be clean (set free)?

~Without heartache, how would we know what it feels like to be comforted by the Father?

~Without being abandoned or rejected, how would we know what it is to be accepted by a love so true, you can’t describe it in words?

~Without falling short, how would we know what it’s like to be restored?

~Without lack, how would we know what it’s like to satisfied?


Often, we think of our painful or negative situation as failures and nothing could be farther from the truth. These things were allowed to happen that we may receive the blessings (understanding, wisdom, compassion, faith, discernment, love, acceptance and peace) on the other side. It took me a long time to see the ugliness of my past as a blessing. But because of those things, I’m stronger, we are stronger, we can help others who face the same ugliness and edify (encourage) them, restored to the glory of God, by the leading of the Holy Spirit.


The training ground is no joke. It’s painful and heartbreaking. It can be down right brutal. It’s ugly and it’s hard. Many times I wanted to throw in the towel. But we have this assurance that everything that the enemy meant for our destruction, death and to steal from us, God uses to refine and strengthen us. God gives us beauty for the ash heaps of our past life. When we received Jesus into our hearts, we became new. No longer does our old nature (our former selves), those filthy rags have any place in us.


God, piece by piece, removes the grime of our poor choices. He heals the wounds we sustained by those of whom we mistakenly trusted and the ones we’ve inflicted on ourselves. He peals off the layers of faces (metaphorical masks) that we hid behind trying to make it seem like we are “keeping it together”. He helps us shake off the dust of rejection and so much more. He adopts us, takes us as His very own. We have been reconciled back to God through the sacrifice of His only Son. What kind of love is this? The greatest kind of love that is unexplainable and sometimes hard to accept because we don’t feel worthy of it. But nonetheless, we are loved. You are so loved!!

Updated: Dec 5, 2021


Your attitude determines your altitude. I'm sure that many of us have heard this saying. What I've learned is this: those of us who were not raised to know the Lord, have been conditioned to believe whatever this world has fed us. We have been conditioned to believe that the things that we see on the outside determine who we are on the inside. This, my Brothers and Sisters is a lie.

For example, if you grew up in or lived in poverty, you may have been conditioned to think that you are poor and that there is no way out of it. You settle on this being your inward attitude.

One day I was driving through a certain part of Albany, NY and the Holy Spirit spoke to me, saying that poverty is a mindset and is an open door (world) prison. That through the generations, those who live in poverty will never leave the open prison because of their mindset of: this is who I am and I can’t do any better than this.

The things that go on around us do not determine who we are on the inside, unless we believe it. Do you know that the human mind is so powerful, that even God cannot change our minds? Well, not unless we yield to His will. Read Exodus 13. When Pharaoh let God's people go, God could have guided them on a shorter path, but because He knew that they were not mentally prepared for a fight, He led them on a long way around. It was easier for God to part the Red sea than it was to change the mindset of the Israelites. After 430 years of slavery, they became comfortable in their servitude. They allowed their outward circumstances become their inward attitude. They didn't want to leave. Why?

God doesn't want mindless robots, He wants us to choose tho walk with Him, and allow Him to guide us on the narrow path that leads to eternal life. We are to believe who God says we are, not this world, our circumstances, or society. We have been conditioned to think that the things of this world are acceptable and right. I call it systematic generational destruction. We pass along the mindset to the next generation and the cycle continues. An entire generation had to die before God could get Egypt out of them. They complained continually, even though God provided evidence of who He is and for every need that they had.



We have to renew our minds by the washing of the word to change the mind, which is no easy task, but in Christ, it is possible (Romans 12:2). Someone said to me once, "Our minds are so powerful. Have you ever walked into a room and forget why you even went into the room in the first place?" We must learn to yield our minds to the will of God, that we may be able to resist the lies and the false sense of what's right and what's wrong. That we may live a life in true relationship and will of our Father. Be blessed brothers and Sisters.

Updated: Dec 5, 2021


I’ve prayed many times, Lord, send me. I didn’t understand, at the time, what I was really asking God. What was I really saying?


I was telling God to do whatever it takes to prepare me for the plans and purposes He has for my life. I gave God permission to make me pliable. To make something pliable, that takes a lot of pressure, heat and time. But that’s what I was saying to God: I’m willing to go through whatever it takes to be changed, so You can use me for Your glory, so I can be more like Jesus.


Sometimes we pray things and wonder why things are happening in our lives. This is not to scare you or dissuade you from praying those types of prayers. But we have to be mindful of what we are asking God. We have to be transformed: less of us, more of Jesus. Those painful seasons aren’t fun, but also aren’t for no reason. There is a purpose for everything that God allows in our lives. The ultimate goal is to make us more and more like Jesus.


Remember when Isaiah was in the presence of God, one of the seraphim took a hot coal from the alter and touched his lips. That couldn’t have felt good. But it cleanses Isaiah from his sins. Remember when Job lost almost everything to break him from the sin of pride? That was painful but served a great purpose in Jobs life and a great witness to the power and grace of God.


Those seasons of brokenness makes us pliable and usable for the Masters work.


Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work. 2 Timothy 2:21


Be blessed in the Lord.